Holding on by a thread

This year has been a struggle. With the combination of school stress, social drama, and medication adjustments, everything has been one big shit show. Many times, I have considered dropping out of school. I question whether my major is even suited for me anymore. I am so insecure about my memory and speech issues, and it affects the quality of my schoolwork. At the same time, the withdrawal from the Benzos is not helping. Some days I feel great; however, other days, I struggle to get out of bed. I desperately want the tremors, insomnia, and muscle pain to go away. I want to feel confident again.